Water Sports II

Alright well I guess it’s not called water sports when you are just dealing with water and BDSM. It’s Water Bondage. How interesting. I found a site that shows a little bit of this. I just wonder who really has a place to do this in. I mean not every one can find a empty wear house. It would be nice to be able to go somewhere and try this thou. I am a pretty good swimmer and I am not afraid of the water at all. But this is being tied up and put in the tub or pool, umm…… not sure about that. Check this out http://www.waterbondage.com/site/shoots.jsp?c=1

The pictures are hot!!! I think I could get into that. I love that water. And I know that the water flow can get you off really well. Have you ever been in a pool or hot tub and put your pussy up against the water flow . OMG that is the greatest. I guess us women can find any way to get off. When I was younger I used to get in the tub and let the water flow. Yes us women take long showers and baths too, just like the boys.

So back to the water sports thing. Have you thought about it? I have a little bit, I think I would be willing to try anything with Master. I still think that drinking it would be a hard limit for me. I just don’t think I would be able to do that. I would get sick to my stomach. I could see Master using that as punishment thou. I don’t know if Master would really get off by it or not. I think it would be worth the try.

Well I can’t believe it!!! It has been a week and I haven’t been punished. Wow. I thought it wouldn’t be possible. Maybe for once I am doing something right. It has been a great week. I have been able to cuddle up to Master and talk with him and have a nice evening. It’s nice to know that my Master is happy. I feel good knowing that I’m making his life a little easier when he comes home after a long day at work and a LONG Drive home. When Master comes in the door I usually go through my head” Ok, have you done every thing?, have you missed anything, is there anything he asked you to do that you didn’t. Now I feel confident that I do have every thing the way he likes it, and It’s done when he gets home. I just hope this keeps up this way. I urge for Master attention all the time, and I want to be with him every minute of the day. So If I just keep doing what I’m doing that will happen. It feels good to know that he does want to be with me as much as I want to be with him. Not that I really thought any different, It’s just nice to feel and see it.

This weekend we are going to a party. I’m looking forward to it. I always look forward to meeting new people. The only thing about me is I’m kinda shy and really don’t know what to talk about with them. Then I will loosen up and talk freely. It seems when Master and I go out I cling to him for at least for first few hours, and I’m kinda quiet. Then, especially if I’m drinking, I will get to talking and make people laugh, and feel more comfortable. I get a little nervous at first, then I guess I think to my self if they don’t like me for me and who I am then fuck it. Maybe its a little more nerve racking because we are usually going to swinger parties and pretty much every one is there for the same thing. It’s funny cuz we all talk and talk , then it has to take one person or two people to get things started. Then when that happens it’s pretty much a free for all. I can’t tell you how maybe parties or clubs I have been to and it all starts that same way. I will let you all know how it goes on Sunday.

Well I’m off to try to snuggle with Master some more while I can.

Water Sports

Have you ever thought about the whole water sports thing. What is it that people get aroused by? Would it turn you on to have some one piss on you, or would it turn you on to pee on some one else? I have always wondered what it is all about. I know a little bit about it is, but what would it feel like. What makes people want to do this? I’ve done some research on some of it and it’s very interesting. I didn’t know that it’s called urolagnia, most people refer to this particular realm of sexual kink as “golden showers”. As the name implies, the most common form such play takes is for one partner to urinate in such a way that the other partner can see and or feel the “golden shower” of urine.
Interestingly enough, many people regard golden showers as one of the most taboo of sexual acts, second only to sex play that specifically revolves around feces. That is, they find it even kinkier and “dirtier” than bondage, rape fantasies, cum swallowing, and/or sticking a vibrating dildo up a loved one’s butt. But while most of us may readily acknowledge the innocent sensuality in the warm, wet feeling of golden showers (and the playful curiosity that might be satisfied in finding out how someone else looks when they pee), we may find it harder to understand what all the fuss is really about. Sure it might be interesting to have a pissing contest with your lover while romping about in the shower. But a couple repetitions of this and then so what. So why the ongoing fuss among pee fetishists?

I will be reading more one this subject. I have always thought there is no way in hell that I would ever want to do some thing like that. When I read about people drinking some one else urine. I get sick to my stomach. I can see why that would be a punishment. When I see pictures of people peeing on other people, it kinda tuns me on. I thought I would never really like my Master to want to pee on me. But then I think about how it would feel and how much that would turn me on. I think about my Master putting me in the shower and kissing me and rubbing me then making me stay on the floor of the shower and Master pissing all over my titties and pussy. Yes I would get very turned on by that. I think it has to do more with I love to do freaky shit with my Master. I love to trust him to use me and use my body to do anything. That is what turns me on. Would Master Love it ? Not really sure. I don’t think that we have ever talked about it before really. I think I would like to piss on some one myself. I think that would turn me on also. Not sure if I could thou. I have hard enough problem peeing when some one is in the room with me. I would have to work on that.

I know that there another fetish that is called watersports too. That is where a women has water hose or water pressure to their pussy. I think that is hot. I have also seen where they tied up and they are put in a pool, or tub of water. That would be scary you cant do anything but try to float. Get the little air you can. But on the other had it would be interesting to try. I will have to do some more research on this for you.

Deeper Submission

What makes a deeper submission?

Submission: (by definition) the act of submitting to the power of another

To give control of yourself to someone else. The act of submitting is part of the power exchange inherent within a D/s relationship. It is the giving of yourself to another within preset limits, arranged before hand.

Why a person is submissive varies from person to person. Some are submissive just for a little extra zing in their intimate lives. Others may have a deep psychological need that prevents them from being any other way.

I believe that are so many different types of Submissive s. I saw this on a site and Raven Shadow said

“A: Sexual Submissive (AKA bottom)
a sexual sub is in D/s for their own sexual gratification. Once their sexual needs are met they are satisfied. They feel no real need to submit any personal control to another.

B: Psychological Submissive
This broad category tends to include those who are in it for the pain and humiliation a D/s relationship can give them. This category tends to include most masochists. Those who have suffered real abuse and are stuck in victim mode, tend to end up in this category.

C: Natural Submissive (AKA True Submissive)
Is born with a submissive nature. A need to please others. This need and submissive tendency goes beyond sexual gratification. It is in their nature to please others, and they will readily give up their control to another with very little or no urging from their dominant.

Who’s to say which category is correct. Being submissive is as unique and individual as you are your own person. Being submissive comes from the heart. It can not be faked, acted or role played. True submission is a gift of high value. It is my opinion that those of us within the lifestyle should not judge any one else within the lifestyle. Who are we to say that a sexual sub is not submissive on a different level? Or that there can only be one type of submissive? Remember, life is full of small variances and innuendos, so is D/s. “

What Type are you?

Me, i think i’m all of them. i believe that i am the sexual sub, that loves to played with sexually as the sub. i love to have my Master pin me down and take what he wants. i love when my Master holds me down and tells me to call his name when i cum. i love all of that. I am also the psychological submissive. i love the pain of the punishment and the humiliation. Yes i was abused in my last relationship, but i don’t play the victim role. i am also the natural submissive. I feel that in my life i am here to serve. i believe in my heart that i am me when i am a submissive to my Master. When being a submissive, I believe that it seems to me that submission comes in steps.

First it is getting orders,

then performing orders,

then performing orders without hesitation and with attention to detail,

then performing orders to a tee then asking if they need anything else.

Author: Lorraine Casey © 2000

Submission is a gift. It can not be given all at once
like a bunch of freshly picked flowers. It must be
cultivated and nourished. While one may be naturally
submissive, one does not naturally submit.

True submission comes from deep within the soul.
It travels through us, pausing at the heart,
where it then emerges through our physical
body and mind to our Dominant. It is my further
belief, that you must love yourself first before you
can serve another.

Without trust, honor and integrity, you are wearing
a mask. While this mask may disguise you from others
it is your true reflection you must face under the mask.
Trust… is stronger than any rope or chain.

Submission is not something a Dominant can take.
It must be given or there can be no surrender.
It is with this frame of thinking that a submissive
should always remember how valuable her gift is.
I have the right to limitations and safety. The most
purest type of submission is that given with no thought
of oneself. if I am worried about my safety, then pure
submission is not obtained. I need communication, consent,
respect, safe word (gesture), and aftercare.

i really like that. Really makes you think. i have to say that i am happy to be my Master’s submissive. i have never felt happier in my life.

Bad Bad Slave

Well… I don’t even know where to begin. Well…
Last night i was a very bad slave. NOT in a good way either. i am so ashamed in my self and the way I acted. i just hope one day that Master will forgive me for this. Master was asking me some questions about some messages he didn’t get. He was very upset and of course me being me i get defensive. i told the truth . i knew i was the one that erased them. He said we got five I only remember hearing 3. But my Master told me to answer him, NOW! i was so scared i couldn’t even think. He told me not to say another word unless it was the answer. And of course my dumb ass says” but why?”, what the hell was going through my mind at that time, was panic, so i was told to go into the closet where I must sit and think about what I have done and how not to do it again. But of course the bad slave that i am, i yell the word NO and i go in the closet. and deiced to look and see what Master has been doing on his phone. Now.. I have been servilely punished for doing things in the closet before, instead of doing what i’m supposed to. i just knew i shouldn’t have looked. i looked at the text messages for a min and put it back. Why is it that women always wants to go through mens wallets and pants pockets? Any way yes of course Master knew i had done that. So He asks me this morning, and i of course told the truth and said yes i did.

Well… A long few weeks have gone by since all that had happened. Master and I have talked a lot about things. Yes this week has gone better. But that is after two weeks of being in the bathroom on the floor sitting for hours on hours. Three hours to be exact. Two weeks pretty much with out affection from Master. That punishment is the worst. Punishment really sucks. I guess that is point though. It seems that I would do better so that I won’t get punished. I have got my collar taken away from me. Now I have to earn it back. Yes I ‘m back to the beinging. I feel like I have failed Master and me. I just hope that I can earn my self back in to the place I was before. It’s going to take a lot of hard work. But I feel like I can do it. I love my Master and I will do everything I can to make him happy. When my Master is happy I am happy.