Wedding thoughts

It’s been a while since I have last posted on here. I guess I’m out of things to say. I have a lot going through my mind. I have had our wedding on my mind lately. There are so many things to be done. So many decision to make.We are going to Jamaica next year to have our wedding at couples resort, couples swept away.

http://www.couples.com/index.html.

This place so awesome! It’s an all inclusive resort. They have these little bungalow. Some of them have hammocks some have nice little porches. What I really like about this place is there is NO kids! Couples only! Plus the wedding comes with the stay. There are some up grades you can get but most of it comes with your stay there! That means more money spent on other things. After our wedding, then we are going back home and having a big party with friends and family. This is where most of the decisions are going to come into play. Thankfully, Master’s sister and cousin is helping us with that planning. Plus with us being thousand miles away it’s hard to get the things done that we will need to do. Thinking about all this just makes me want to make lists of To Do and things to remember. I don’t want to be one of those brides that waits until the last minute to do things.

I am a very simple kind of girl. I don’t need the princess dress and the crown. I don’t need a huge expensive sit down dinner party. I am more of your back yard, pot luck, with a band kind of girl. But this is the going to be the best day of our lives and I would like to make it the best. Most of the wedding is basically planned when you get there. I mean I will need to decided if I want to just take music or have a band there, and the pic package, and the day and time of the wedding. The planner at the resort does most of the rest.

The reception back home is going to the hardest I think. Our families live about 2hrs away from each other. I would like to have some thing in the middle for both families. I don’t want to invite all of the family. I don’t need it to be huge. I think I will need a place that is by a hotel or in a hotel. I had been doing some research. Wow, didn’t know that most of the cost of everything is the food.

( I know, I know… Master says don’t worry about the cost). I have seen a lot of brides get in trouble and going way over board and ending up with a 100,00 wedding.

Any way….

I do have an idea of what I would like. I want a room where we can do a little sand ceremony with the kids. Then party. I’m going to have my sister and who ever Master picks as his best man to stand up with us and it will be pretty short. Then the party is on. Food and drinks and music and a good time. I want the room to kinda have the theme of Jamaica. Since that is where we are going to get married at. I want to have the Asian lanterns hanging from the celling to give the nice romantic look. For food I was thinking not to have a dinner. Maybe like a buffet, or just appetizers nothing fancy. Then drinks. We could have it a little later than dinner say start at like 7pm. I was thinking we would buy the beer and wine and any other drinks would be a cash bar or some thing a long that lines. I would like to have those big vase on the table with fish in them. I really don’t want to many flowers. I really think they are unnecessary. Colors I really am not sure of yet. Who knows to be honest.

You think I would want to get a start on this since it’s about a year away. The day will come faster than what I think. We have the date, the time, and the place. Now its all the details.

Fantasies

We all have fantasies don’t we. I have so many I just don’t know what to do with my thoughts. I think women have more of them, than men. What do you think? Women they dream of those romantic nights with their loved one. They dream of the times when their man will just give them flowers for no reason. Women dream of making love like the movies. But we all know that it doesn’t happen like the movies. We hope that they would kiss us soft and slowly, but we get the tongue down the throat, or they have the hardest lips on the earth. Women want it to last all night, well… that doesn’t happen. Nether the less we love it no matter how it is or comes to us. So what do you do with all those fantasies? I guess I’m going to write them here.

As a slave that doesn’t get to be a stay at home slave,(plus we have kids) I would love to be able to have Master come home from work and me be all sexy and naked with thigh highs on, on my knees waiting for his instruction. I would love to see what he would do with me then. I would like to be in a maids outfit and cook him dinner, serve him wine, then dinner and me dessert. I love to role play, well maybe I shouldn’t say that. I really haven’t ever role played to much before. I would like to go to the bar, and Master go with his friends, and then act like we don’t know each other and see if we could pick each other up. And of course we would end up in the bar bathroom fucking like crazy. That sounds like fun. I once read a post some where, where this guy took his slave to a bar and told her she couldn’t come back to him until she made him some money. She came back to him at the end of the night with like $500. She was a good slave. That would be interesting. I think you would have to go to the right bar for that. But it could be done though. To have Master make you do some thing that would never do, that would be so out of control. But you know you want to make your Master proud so you would do it. I know I love to bring my Master money.

I wonder some times what would break me. Would I need to get spanked until my ass bleeds, or Master humiliating me. I’m not really sure, but I’m willing to find out. I always say I will try anything once. But If Master tells me to do it again I would in a heart beat.

Limits

As I have grown as a submissive and a slave I have thought about my limits. People talk about hard limits and soft limits. What are they really? When you are in a D/s relationship you learn every day what your limits are, or do you have limits at all. I believe when you trust your Master that you shouldn’t have limits. Your Master owns your heart, body, soul, and mind. When I first became my Master’s slave I thought that I would have limits of things that I would not want to do or like at all, but as we have grown, I have learned that I would do anything for my Master. I would sell myself for him, if that is what he wanted. I will do anything to please him. When I think about what I thought my limits would be and what they really are they are so different. When Master and I start to push my limits I want to do more and more. I think about things that I want my Master to do to me or with me. I have all these things in my mind roaming around that some times I start to get wet when I think about how it would feel to trust my Master to do these things to me or with me. There have been times when I have shared them with him and we have tried doing them, and they are so great. I think the more we get into this relationship the more I want to push both of our limits. There are things that I thought I would never do with anyone, but with Master I know that I would trust him and love it. It feels good to trust my Master that much. When I gave Master all of me, I really gave him the trust, and love, and control to do what he wishes with me, and that is what I needed in my life.

Some of the things that go through my mind when we are doing a scene or when we are have sex, shit or even when I think about how far we can push our limits. I would love for my Master to tie me up with my legs spread, and do what ever he wants to do with my pussy, and my body. I would love for him to see what he could put in my pussy. Just for him to shove what ever he feels like into my pussy. I would like to see how much of a wine bottle I could put in me. I know that Master fists me and I love that. I want to be able to see it and watch it and see just how much he can put inside me. I would love to see him use my body for a table or plate. I would love for my Master to use my body to eat off. That would be really hot.

Wow, do I have so much going through my mind its hard to write it all down, in a way you all could understand. I would love for my Master to take me some where blindfolded, where there are going to be a lot of people. He would walk me in on a leash, and I would be like a present to the other people. I would be freshly shaved, and he would take me in the bathroom and dress me in some thing sexy. He would give me a douche and enema to get me ready for anything. I would be oiled down. Then he would give me a big kiss and tell me to be a good girl and do what he tells me to do and I would get an award when he is done with me. Master takes me into the other room where the other people are waiting for me. Master would have me crawl on the floor and kneel right next to his feet. I still would be blindfolded. Then he would take me to who ever he wanted and have me do what ever he wanted. I could not contest anything that Master wants me to do. I can not talk, the only sound I could make is to moan. I can not ask questions. Master would tell the other people what to do with me. I would be totally under Masters control. Which I am always anyway. Then the rest is your imagination. OOOWEE, I’m all wet.

When Master and I get going in the bed room, I get so excited. I love making love to my Master. He is the best lover I have ever had in my life. When we get things so heated up it can really get out of control. I love that. I guess I like my love making a little rough. But When we are into it, I just think in my mind I want more, more, more. Things that go through my mind are things like just take me. Use me like the little slut I am. I have never thought that I would want a man to do the things I want Master to do. When we are making love I would love for him to call me all kinds of names. I want to bite me so hard that It breaks the skin. I love the way he grabs my back and digs in my back. Omg. It just makes me cum all over the place. When he is fucking me from behind I always think to my self, Oh Master stick some thing in my ass. I would love to have the feeling of something fucking my ass and something fucking my pussy at the same time.

When Master spanks me, at first I think to my self ” you can get through this, relax and you will like it”. Then after a while, I want more. I am such a little greedy bitch. I would love for Master to take clothes pins and put them all over my pussy and nipples. Then play with them and toucher me with them. Maybe make me play with them and play with my self but tell me I can’t cum. With them pitching my skin then make me crawl to him and beg for more. I never used to like to beg for anything, but now it’s still hard for me, but I love begging for Master. With those still pinned to me, take the cane to me. I would love to try the cane and whips more. Paddles I want more of too. I really want to see how far I can do with that. I want my ass to be so sore I can’t sit down for awhile. I want my back to in pain from the whips. Wow, Am I really saying all this??? I want to get my nipples pierced and have Master hang things from my nipples. Get my hood pierced then we could hang a chain from my nipples to my pussy. That would be fun.

Any those are only a few of the things that I want to do to push our limits. Now that I’m all wet I need to ask Master If I can play with my self. Ha ha.