New Rules

Today I’m off Master’s shit list. I feel so much better. I hate being on his shit list. I’m the type of person that I want to fix things right away. And sometimes that can’t happen. Master sat me down the other day and talked to me. He has decided to give me new rules. This is how it all breaks down.

Every time I don’t do some thing I’m not supposed to or I have an infraction. Then it counts as a number. He will tell me what I did wrong, how to do it right next time. 1st – 4th time. That happens. On the 5th time I will have an hour in the closet. Every time after that then its another hour added. So 6th time would be 2 hrs, 7th time 3 hours, 8th time 4 hours.9th time 5 hours. If I get to the 10th time, then my collar will be cut off.

This is all in one day. When I get up in the morning then it I start at one again.

I think this is very far. If Master has to talk to me 10 times in a day then I yes I believe that I don’t deserve my collar either. I feel good about this. I hope that I never get to 5 times.

Yesterday was a crazy day for me. I went to work, and got a call from Master. He was on the side of the road. Needed me to get some one to work for me and go home to get the car and pick him up. I did that and went home. The damn car wouldn’t start. I ended up borrowing my friends car to go and get him. I know how stressful that can be setting on the side of the road. Have to call into work and let them know that you will be late for work. Then all the stress of trying to get the car fixed. We go the car to the shop and then Master to work, witch is about 1 1/2 hours away from my job. It took awhile to get back to work. Then I find out that the State was up at the property where I work. They were there doing inspections. That is always a crazy time. Kinda glad I missed it. The girl that just started that day as a supervisor, in the other house that I used to work in, I was supposed to go and help and train her a little bit. So that was a little stressful for me. But on the plus side I got to see Master a little bit more that day. I always can go for a little more of Master. It’s all good now. Master told me that he was happy, and I did a good job and I was helpful. That just made my day. I’m glad that for once I could help solve the problem instead of being the problem. So of course later that night, I was all horny and just wanted to fuck his brains out. It didnt’ happen right when I wanted to but I did get some of the best loving. Well.. it’s always the best. I’m so very lucky!

Protocols and Rules

From the book Protocols by Rober J. Rubel, PhD

Protocols represents a set of rules that govern specific actions or behavior in a particular situation. Protocols are an outgrowth of Master’s values. There are levels of protocols.

Social Protocol: The slave refers to Master as “Master” or “Sir” but has not other language restriction. The slave may walk almost next to Master and in all other ways appear to be part of a “vanilla” couple.

Low Protocol: The slave will not sit until Master has been seated. The slave will ask permission if she needs to go somewhere out of eyesight.

High Protocol: The slave’s sole purpose is to please Master and make Master’s life easier. The slave is to remain on highly alert to any problem that may need to be solved ( such as reminding Mater of someone’s name or taking a business card being offered to Master from another person.

Some of the Protocols that I would like to do is:

Master will seat the slave at the table; under no circumstances will the slave seat herself unless Master has directed this action.

The slave will closely monitor all beverages Master is drinking and ensure that they are kept filled with out prompting.

Walking: The slave normally walks in a position that is to the right and about one step behind Mater. The slave is to assume a position that is natural yet reflects our respective rank. The slave is to be near enough that Master can easily speak with her and give her orders.

Present My self to Master: When the slave needs to ask a question of Master or receive additional instructions to complete an assigned task. I will bring myself to Master within Master’s awareness and wait for acknowledgment with out disturbing whatever Master is doing.

Those are some of them. I would like to have more Protocols but Master is just trying to get me to be able to do the basics right now. Right now I’m working on “To obey instructions”. That is the tough one. You don’t think it would be, but I think once I get past this one, I’ll be good! The next one is to serve with grace and elegance. Then to anticipate and solve Master’s problems.

There are some of the protocols that we already do. I remember when I was being told everyday that I forgot one of the protocols. We have one that when I get into the shower I need to ask Master to take off my collar. You don’t know how many times I got in the shower and had to get out all wet and ask Master to take it off. Then when I get out of the shower, I need to ask Master to put it back on me. I have been punished many times for that one. I would get out and get dressed and forget all about it. For a long time I would say to my self in the shower” don’t forget to ask for you collar back on”. I would say if over and over again. Now I would have to say, I have gotten pretty good at remembering. When we are in public I do walk behind,slightly behind Master. I’m not sure if he even realizes it or not.

I understand why her hasn’t added any more. If I can’t get these right then how can you he give me more to learn. When we first started to get into this life style, I had about 10 basic rules. Now these have grown to about 14. Here are the basic rules that I have:

1. Always do what Master says.

2. Never take off or put on my collar with out permission.

3. Don’t argue with a decision made by Master.

4. Never deviate from instructions.

5. Never pleasure myself with out permission

6. Say “Thank you Master” after receiving punishment.

7. NO lip but on the Dick

8. No panties around Master, unless with permission

9. Always in skirts or dresses around Master, unless with permission

10. Can’t cut my hair with out permission

11. Don’t say “What” when called

12. Can’t order for yourself when out

13. Tell Master rules everyday

14. After a question answer “Sir”, or “Master”

At one point her had me memorize them all and know them by number. So when he said a number I was able to say the rule. I was able to do that for a long time. Now I’m not so sure. I guess I probably should take a look at them more often. Most of the rules are not hard to follow, they come second nature to me. Some of them like rule #3,# 4 I would have to say those are very hard for me to follow. I have gotten better, but not all the way there yet.

I do want to grow as a submissive/slave. I don’t want to be stuck in the training process forever. But is there ever a time where your not being trained? Are you ever done learning? I don’t think so. I just would like to get past the basics. I guess the only one that can make that happen is me. I need to work hard. To me the pay off for that would be that Master is happy. And when Master is happy, I am happy.

Weekend home with Master

We have had a nice weekend home with each other. It started with us waking up sat morning, and giving each other a kiss. Then we started to touch and rub each other. Next thing you know we are going at it. We got dressed then Master took me out to lunch. First we went to Fridays. Went in the bar and it was funny, here we are going out for my 35th b-day and I get carded. I didn’t have my ID with me so they said they wouldn’t serve me. So we went some where else. When we left I kinda felt like when you are 18-20 yrs old and you just trying to see if they will serve you or not, then when they don’t you just walk out. Any way, we went some where else and I was not carded and I had a berry margarita. It was very good. Had some good food. Then we went and picked up my cake. Master likes the ice cream cakes. He got me Red Velvet Cake with Strawberry ice cream with nuts in it. It was very very good. We went home and the kids and Master sang happy birthday to me. Then Master and I went in the bed room and fucked again. Then Master and I went to bed kinda early. Then we woke up this morning and started making love. Wow, it lasted a few hours. Then I was about to get up out of bed and take a shower. I tried to kiss Master’s feet and then he pulled them away from me. Then I jumped on him and what do you know, we start to kiss and we are naked and making too much noise. I think we have basically fucked all day. Oh we went into the kitchen, see what we are going to make for dinner. We started to make out, I jumped up on the counter and Master fucked me on the counter. Ohhhh yea, it was hot. Good thing the kids are grounded to their rooms. I just kept thinking what would the kids say if they came out there and saw us naked and Master on top of me on the kitchen counter. That would not be good. Any way we have ate dinner and are relaxing. My body a little bruised from all the good abuse in the bed room!

Friday night

It’s Friday night and I’m at home alone with the kids. It was nice that Master had me order pizza. But I would much rather be here with him. He got mad about something and took off with out me. I really don’t like it but what can I do but listen to what he had to say. Make sure I learn from and it and move on with the night.

Today I found out that my boss wants to move me to another house to work. We have six houses. I have been working in House 5 since I started working there almost 2 yrs ago. Well, the boss had decided to make one supervisor for each house. Thats how I became a super. Then one of the supervisors quit and today was her last day. Now the boss wants to put me over there to work. Since House 6 is the main office, and where we get all the calls for employment, and vacancies. The boss feels that I would be great for House 6 and that I would be able to take on the responsibilities. Hopefully when she sees I can, maybe I will get another raise. That is what I’m hoping for. This company is going to be expanding and building other properties and I think If I do stay with them, that I will be able to move up in the company. It’s that what every one wants, unless they are already at the top. What is good about the move is that it doesn’t change my hours. Master doesn’t know about this yet, because like I said I didn’t really get a chance to talk to him. I’m here alone on a Friday night.

I miss him!

Nothing

I was told to write something today. Humm really don’t have much to say so here I am. Master and I are going to do some thing this weekend for my birthday. I wonder what he has in store for me. I love Master’s surprises. Master is the one that always makes the plans. I like it that way, all I have to worry about is being ready when he tells me to be ready and looking good. How easy is that?   Well even thou that is the only thing I have to worry about, that is very hard to do some times for a women. I am a person that likes to be on time, and Master is the same way. So I do my best to be ready when he says to. Most of the time he tells me to be ready about an half hour before he really wants to leave. Even if that means rushing around to and just picking some thing to wear.  Ya know how some times you look at every thing you have to wear and try on different outfits, then you ask you Master “Does this look ok?”. Then there are times when you just find some thing quick.

Any way, I’m sure Master has some thing nice for us to do. The other day he asked me what would I want to do for my birthday. Hell, I never really think about what I would want to do because he does all that thinking for me. Maybe he just wanted to see what I would want to do if it was my choice. I would need to think about it. To me just spending time with Master is all I need.

Tonight I have to go back to work and check on the 3rd Shift person. Wee how fun. I really don’t want to go up there at 11pm but I guess that is part of being a Supervisor. I knew that was part of the job when I took it so here I go. And I need the over time any way. I’m trying to make up my money to go to MI on vacation for the summer. I do want to go and see my friends and family so I’ll do what I need to do. Plus I have do a coaching with the team memeber also. I don’t know how well it will go. But I’m sure I can handle it. She might not like what I say, But the good thing is I know that my Boss will back me up. This women can be really hard to deal with. But what is she going to do ? Quit? Well I have things to do and chores to do. Before I leave.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Happy Birthday to me! Yes I’m getting older. Wow how the years have gone by. I remember how I was 18 and just starting to go out to the clubs. I thought I was the shit. I could dance all night long. I could drink all night long. Then I could fuck all night long. How times change! Now I can only dance about 3 songs MAX, until I need to take a break and a drink and I can only handle about 4 strong drinks. One thing I could say is that I still can fuck all night long, but my body is sore the next day. Oh well that is life right!

Well I’m off to get my Birthday Spankin’s

The closet

Master started this punishment awhile ago. When I get in big trouble or when I mouth off then I go to the closet. Now the closet is very small and crowded and can be very hot in there. I HATE IT with a passion. I have to go in there for no amount of time. I have to sit on my knees in the dark and think about what I did, Then wait, wait wait, and wait. At first when I was put in there I counted every minute I was in there. The longer I was in there the more pissed off I would get. When I was called out to talk about what I did wrong, I would still be pissed off at the fact that I had to go in there in the first place. But what I should have really been pissed at was my self. I was the one that got me put in there to begin with. That’s what happens when you don’t think before you act. Now when I get put in the closet, I do think about what I did and think about what I can do next time to not get put in there. I still HATE IT with a passion. But you think that would give me more incentive to not get put in there in the first place. To me it’s like being put in jail and you can’t get out until the guard says you can. But you are in the dark and on your knees. I would have to say some times I need to go into the closet. I would being talking to Master in a way that I definitely shouldn’t be and getting out of control, then those times I would want to put myself in there, just so I can collect my self and think about what I’m saying and doing, and think about what is going to the be consequence for that behavior. Plus every minute that I’m in the closet that takes time away from me being able to be with Master. I would have to say that is the worst punishment yet.

Ecstasy

• Ecstasy (emotion), a trance or trance-like state in which an individual transcends normal consciousness
• Religious ecstasy, a changed state of consciousness characterized by expanded spiritual awareness, visions or absolute euphoria
• Ecstasy (philosophy), a term used to mean “outside-of-itself”
• MDMA or Methylenedioxymethamphetamine, a psychedelic drug sold under the street name “ecstasy”.

Making love to my Master is like being on X or being in ecstasy. When our warm naked bodies are next to each other they just move like they are one body. It’s so intense like nothing I have ever experienced. When I kiss Master I start to feel this warm feeling all over my body.  When he hands touch my body , I start to melt.  Master knows exactly what I like.  He will kiss and bite my neck.  Some times really hard. It hurts but I like it.  Then he will grab my back and squeeze my skin with his nails.  I never thought that I would love that so much.  When he does that I am at his mercy. I start to moan and i just want him to take me after that.  He takes his time and works me up and works me up.  He likes to tease me.  Master will kiss me and squeeze my back, and then bite me then he will rub his hand over my wet pussy.  I’m just thinking play with my pussy and fuck me and make me cum.  Our bodies are getting hotter and my pussy is getting wetter.  I’m just dying to suck his dick, so I’m trying to move down there to get at it. He finally lets me at it.  Oh my mouth is so wet and just loving the taste of Master’s dick.  It’s gets so rock hard when I suck his dick.  Master likes to pull me back up to him by my collar and kiss him.  Then he really starts getting me.  By this time, I’m so in ecstasy that I loose all thoughts.  Master will keep teasing me or he will start to lick my pussy.  Oh my Lord! I would have to say he is the best pussy licker I have ever had!  He makes me squirt.  For a long time I wasn’t able to squirt in front of any one, NOW, He can make me squirt in like 2 minutes.  I love squirting all over Master’s face and then have him kiss me.

Our love making can get really intense.  Master will grab my back or take his nails and scratch me from the top to the bottom of my back.  Then I will bite Master hard and he will do the same to me.  I really don’t know how to describe the feeling.  It’s like we get each other so worked up and to the point where neither one of us can control what we do.  When I get to that point, I start getting so many thought going through my head.  I will want Master to grab my throat and squeeze it hard. I will want him to slap my tities.  I will want him to do what ever he feels he wants to do with me.  It’s like I get to that point, and I want Master to abuse me any way possible. And I will love every minute of it.  Plus I love to get Master to that point also.  It is such a turn on for me to know that Master is just as out of control and in Ecstasy as I am.

Our bed room I would say is the Ecstasy Room. It’s heaven!

Weekend play time

This weekend Master and I went out and met up with this other couple. They are really cool. We met them at another swingers club. It’s funny she has the same name as me. I have never really hung out with any one with the same name. Master calls out my name and two women call back. Oh yea he likes that! But it was a little weird. We all went out to this cute hotel. He had some vodka and cranberry. We started to play some cards just to break some ice. Then the guys went out to get us some food. And the girl said ” I have a new toy you want to see it?”. Well yes I love toys! Let’s see it. She pulls out this vibrator that has a suction cup on it. It looks like this one http://www.edenfantasys.com/vibrators/clitoral-stimulators/advanced-clitoral-pump

I tell you what ladies if you don’t have one, get one. It made me squirt in like 5 seconds. I have to say at first when she put it on me, I laughed. It tickled, but once you get through that then it feels very good. After I squirted. Then about that time the guys came back. We finished up our game I think. Then the lights go out and play time starts. At first the other women and I played a little bit. Then we all started getting busy. I personally like to watch my Master fuck other women. I think its the voyer in me. I like to watch. I wouldn’t say that it totally turns me on, I think that I like to see what he does with other women. Also, I like to watch the other women get their brains fucked. My Master is great and I know it. I know that women get to fuck him, they will be begging for more and more. He is very sensual and very good at what he does. So for me, I like to watch him turn the women out. And I think, yea girl enjoy the dick while you can, cuz i get that good shit every night!!!! I’m a very lucky women. I think that many women would do anything to be with my Master and I am the one he decided to love and be with for the rest of his life.

I do like to watch other people too. I like to see what other people do to get some one else off. I like to learn about different techniques. Also of course how can you go wrong with a live porno.  Master is not a voyeur, he likes to be involved in the action.  He would rather be with me and another women,than to watch me and another women.  Hey I can understand, I would like to in the middle of two women also. The rest of the night I will leave up to your imagination.  We had a good time.  On the way home we talked a bit about the night.  Master gets really mad at me when we are out parting, and we are on our way home, and I fall asleep.  Well.. It’s hard not to fall asleep in the car after a night of drinks and sex, I know.  I think one of these nights he’s just going to stop the car and drop me off.  No not really, but I will be staying awake on our way home from now on.  The next we basically slept most of the day away. Usually when we get home from a night of swinging, we like to unwind and make love to each other, Or some times it’s the next morning or day.  It’s the best.  For me when I have been playing all night, 99% of the time I’m not getting off. Then you go home and make love to the best lover you have ever had.  It’s kinda good thou, because you are getting all worked up and teased all night then you go home and take all out on your Master… oh yea!  Then you think wow, how good is it to be with some one that knows everything that gets you so worked up, what makes you go over the edge, one that makes you cum over and over again.  It’s great being in love!

The roller coaster

Do you ever feel like your life is like a roller coaster. I really don’t like that kind of life my self. We all probably have that same type of feeling. You are climbing the hill looking at the nice scenery and relaxing, you are anxious and a little scared. You don’t want look down! Things are going great, the kids are not in trouble and doing good in school, your job is going great, you and your partner are getting along well. But then one little moment, at a blink of an eye, you start to go over to the dreadful drop. You can see at the bottom of the hill, it smooths out, but it’s the drop that just kills your stomach. Just like life. You or some one, says the wrong thing, or does the wrong thing, or the kids get in trouble at school, or your coworkers don’t do what they are supposed to do and gives your more work, car breaks down or you and your loved one get into a fight and you say or do the wrong things, then you feel just like when you are going down that hill, your stomach hurts, you close your eyes, your muscles tighten up, and some times tears from the eyes come out. On the roller coaster that hill only lasts for a few seconds, but in life that might last for days or even weeks. Then you do your best to get over the feeling from the drop, and move on to the smooth part of the ride. Then you finally get to another hill. This one might be small, a bill comes in that you forgot about and you need to pay right then and there, or you have another bad day at work. But those are over quickly. It’s the largest hills in life that are the hardest, the drop is longer and you don’t get to the smoother part of the ride.

What I don’t like is in relationships some times you have great days where you both are just happy and want to be around each other and want to be touching each other all the time. Then something will happen, and that stops for hours or days or weeks. That just sucks. You just want to work the problem out and move on and get back to the way you two were before the issue came up. If you don’t work out the issues when they come up and just move on with out working it out, then the issue WILL come up again. That is one of the biggest lesson I have learned by being with Master. Before Master I would get up set, or we would get into a fight, and never talk about it again. Just let time pass and then it will come up again. Things never get solved that way, you never learn why the issues come up to begin with. It took a long time to learn that but Master has been very patient with me. I guess the reason I don’t like the roller coaster is because as soon as we get to the top and about to go down, I don’t try to stop it. I just let us go down the hill, then I go into this “FIX” mode, I feel I need to fix now! I don’t really take the time to ride the bottom part and figure out what went wrong at the top of the hill. I like to have a roller coaster that has only little hills and its smooth. Every one goes on the coasters its just do you like the biggest one in the park or do you like the kiddy rides?